Fresh Start Daily

I was halfway through the book of Daniel but I got distracted by a lot of other things and instead of finishing the book in my quiet time, I would just open the Bible randomly. So today, I decided to start from chapter 1 again. What stood out to me in chapter 1 is verse 9.

“Now God had brought Daniel into the favor and goodwill of the chief of the eunuchs.”

The favor that we receive from people is ultimately from the Lord. It is He who works in the hearts of men to bless us. It is He who blesses us through people.

Sometimes we think that when people give us a favor, we think that it’s because of our being likeable or because of other people’s kindness. I am not discrediting people’s kindness but it’s just amazing to know that favors are ultimately from God.

He wants to bless us and He uses people to do that. Also, it talks about the obedience of the people that God uses to bless us. If they do not  obey, we wouldn’t receive God’s blessing.

This made me think about the countless times I was given favor by other people without me knowing why because I think I’m not deserving. Now I understand. It is God showing me that He loves me and cares for me.

The king ordered the eunuch to provide the king’s delicacies and wine to the young men who had the ability to serve in the palace. However, Daniel requested of the chief of the eunuchs that he and his friends Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah be fed with only vegetables and water.

It doesn’t say exactly why Daniel considered the king’s food as defiled so I had to look it up. I found these points on enduringword.com:

1. The food was not kosher.

The Hebrew word “kosher” means fit or proper as it relates to Jewish dietary law. Kosher foods are permitted to be eaten, and can be used as ingredients in the production of additional food items. The basic laws are of Biblical origin (Leviticus 11 and Deuteronomy 17).

2. It was probably sacrificed to idols

3. Eating the king’s food implied fellowship with Babylon’s cultural system

They already changed his name to Belteshazzar and commanded them to be trained. Daniel drew the line by not accepting the king’s food. Eating the king’s food is a sign that he gave his loyalty to the king. But, Daniel’s loyalty belongs to God only, so he purposes in his heart that he would not eat the king’s food.

We can see Daniel’s discipline and courage despite being a teenager/a young man. I suddenly remembered Esau who sold his birthright to Jacob for a bowl of soup. He was not able to curb his hunger and exchanged something so precious as his birthright to something that is much much less valuable.

The eunuch was scared for his life because he is accountable to the king. Daniel asked him to test them for ten days and compare them with the other chosen young men. The eunuch consented with them and after ten days, he saw that Daniel and his friends looked healthier than those who were given the king’s delicacies.

When the time came that the king had to interview the young men, he found out that there was no match for Daniel and his friends when it comes to knowledge and skill, and so they were chosen to serve the king.

I went out on a date with God today. I have been meaning to set aside one whole day with God but I think it’s not possible for now so I’ll maximize the time I have.

After the church service this morning, I asked God to help me find a place where I can have a quiet time with Him. I found this spot and was glad that there were only two people inside. (Just to clarify, we don’t need to go somewhere else to spend quiet time with God. We can talk to Him anytime, anywhere. I just really wanted a place where I could focus.)

Anyway, I enjoyed the pasta and the hot matcha latte. I had to ask the staff to add hot water in my drink because it was too sweet. The pasta was okay. I think olives and capers shouldn’t be paired with sundried, salted herrings because they make the dish too salty. It’s just my preference. I understand others probably like it that way. Although, yes, I can take out the olives and capers.

I’m grateful I keep scratch papers in my bag. I can’t keep long mental notes and I have to write them down. Sometimes, when an idea comes and I tell myself I have to remember it because it’s important, I forget it right after another idea comes. Sooo… I wrote down my prayer to God and some other important things today.

I enjoy quiet times. It’s crucial for my sanity. There are things in my life that I’m still processing. My life had been a whirlwind since the start of the year. I hadn’t really gotten the chance to sit down, be quiet, think, and write. I’m grateful for today.

This morning, during the praise and worship time, I was crying and groaning loudly while the people around were singing. I honestly wanted that part of the service to last the whole day so I can release my stresses.

A lot of things happened over a period of five months. I met Lelan, became a girlfriend, got engaged, said goodbye to him temporarily, planned for a wedding, worked, met a lot of people, had two wedding ceremonies, had a physical intimacy with a man for the first time, said goodbye again… I was so busy I didn’t couldn’t have time to be emotional. There were times during the wedding planning when I wanted to cry but didn’t have the opportunity. My eyes would well up but I would wipe my eyes before the tears fell because I had things to do.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m grateful to God for my husband. I just didn’t have enough time to meditate–to pray and read the Bible–because of all the preparation and whatnot. I admit that there were times when I didn’t get to read the Bible anymore because of the busy-ness. I confessed this to God and repented. I told myself that I won’t let anything anymore to stop me from having my devotion time.

God is good. He is always good. The bad things that happened to me, God allowed them for a reason. I trust that God is with me and He will never leave me.

I joined ate Elena and the other missionaries in ministering to the prisoners in Cogeo, Antipolo.